Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Dinner for 3

Well I got home after picking up the Dog from the groomers today. Called my friends Todd, Amy and Oliver. Wished Oliver a happy birthday. He is so cute. I then got off the phone, and started to think. Well thinking turned into complete sobbing. I have not cried really good in a long time. Yesterday was 8 months since Misty passed and I miss her so much!

Well as I was crying I thought about some spagetti sauce that she made and froze for us to eat later. I thought why not make a special dinner for us as a family. Me Misty and Lucas. Try not to think of me insane because I am not. This was actually therapeutic to do. I was supposed to get so much done tonight but I just could not stop crying. I hate to say it but it felt good to let those feelings out. I prayed over dinner as if Misty and Lucas were right there, I asked for them to be blessed in their work on the other side of the veil and it felt so good to think of them with me.

And of course in true Misty fashion she had to take pictures of every cute thing. So that's what I did in remembrance of her. Even though it was frozen for 9 months the sauce was GREAT! Misty is a awesome cook. I did not get my english paper done but I will have to work on it now so I get an "A" like my last one!

Here are the pictures of the night. for some reason it put them in the wrong order and it won't change it when I drag them. I can edit the HTML but I am lazy and don't have the time. I took the first picture with my phone and then decided to try to get artsy... did not work too well.

You would not believe how ard it is to get this clear with out a tripod in low lighting.





Misty wrote this note to me about 2 weeks before she died.


Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Never thought that I would see the day...


You hate to see it but I guess that it is one of those milestones so to speak. I have to say that just over 7 months ago I was a different person. I am doing my best to welcome the change and leave room in my life to become a better man. I miss Misty so much, it is hard to describe it. It is so tough to want to cry so bad and all you feel like doing is laughing. The mental struggles one goes through during tragedy is so interesting. I have come a long way, but I have a long way to go. all i can say to everyone is Stay strong and endure to the end.

Thanks again to all who pray and think about me. I love each and everyone of you.