So its been a while.

I know I have not been the best at updating this lately... I want everyone to know I am Okay. I have had a real hard time through the holidays. Every time I would get on here to say something I would just get angry for no reason and not feel like it. I am sure a lot of people probably stopped looking here because it has been 2 months since I have written. So whats been going on you ask?

Well not really too much, Living I guess. I should say surviving. Some things that have happened;

Purchased Misty's Headstone.
Went on a trip to Denver.
Survived Thanksgiving.
Purchased a new TV.
Survived Christmas and New years.
Registered for school.

pretty much in that order, among with other things.

I have such good friends and family that help me through it all, and continue to help.

How do you explain how much you hurt inside and filled with complete sadness. With out making people start thinking your depressed or forcing psychiatric help.

Some have suggested counseling for me. I have thought about it, but sometimes I just fill like I don't need it. So I don't.

Instead I have joined a group of Widows and Widowers on Facebook.

I have set some new goals for myself this year as well, and I am going to try to start meeting new people. That might occupied some of my alone time. I do have great friends and even some single friends that I can hang out with. I just think meeting new people will help me take my mind off of things.



I have on my computer a little photo app that rotates through photos that are of Misty. This just happened to be one that was up during the time that I was writing this, so i thought I would share. Oh how I miss her... its so hard to explain the way I feel sometimes. Lost is a good word.

Waiting for the day to be found again...