Still Hanging in there

25 days ago my life changed forever. How can it be real? No matter how busy I stay, I must still face the reality that my Wife and Son are away.

I started to write on this then later decided It was getting too personal and needed to copy it in my journal instead. So you know I wrote a conversation with Misty and thanked her for somethings that she had me do with the baby. like kiss her belly and hold her until I would feel him. But I noticed I was typing to Misty and not to the blog.

I want everyone to know that I thank each and everyone of you that has helped me through this time in our lives. I could not do it with out the prayers and the love that has been shown to me and my family. Words can not tell the great loss we all feel right now. I love you all thank you again.

I really do mean the things I say on here. I hope you all know that. I do feel it a priviledge to share our life with you. but you all must know I need to hold things sacred to me and my wife and disclose them when the spirit prompts me to do so.

I do love to read the responses that are on this, Facebook, and the obiturary thanks to everyone who contributed and will in the future.

I will post again soon.

Misty's Flowers

After Misty passed. I went to my Sister's house for a nap I later went over to my house to take a shower. When we got there I thought that someone left two planters on our front flower bed. When Lonni and I went to see them. They were our own flowers which misty and I planted this year and they bloomed for the first time. When I saw them I tried to have everyone see them. Not everyone could but I took pictures so here you go! We hope you like them! We worked really hard on our yard this year.

(Before: when we first bought the house)

we just had a bunch of rocks and broken concrete in the front so ugly!

(before we planted this year)


(After we planted)

The veil is thin.

I wanted to share some experiences I had during the time of Misty's passing, and testify of what I know to be true. I should tell anyone reading this first that if you lack in faith, please try to exercise an ounce of it at this time and try to believe what I am about to tell you. I do this now because often we feel closer to God when we are at loss. This is a true principle, God lets us experience pain and sorrow so that we cry out for him. Not all of us talk to him as much as we should.

Many of you know that I am a faith filled man, and I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter saints. I am not preaching to anyone, I am letting you know of my experience with Misty. What I want from those who do not believe there is an afterlife or those who are not sure. To please, open up their hearts to my experience and try to exercise some belief.

I KNOW that our Father in heaven is REAL! And his son Jesus Christ atoned for our transgression while he ministered on this earth. I knew these things before this happened to Misty. I want you to know that I did not gain this knowledge because of the suffering I am going through. I found out by asking our Father in heaven.

You can too; Jesus is knocking only you can let him in.

When Misty first died Saturday morning, I was hysterical and my heart felt as if it was pulled out and trampled upon. After I left pioneer hospital and was heading to IHC hospital I began to feel the love of our Heavenly father poor out for me. I felt a love between my wife and I grow 100 fold. Never in my life had I felt that way about her. It is a perfect love, a love without boundaries. I was able to feel her around me. I knew when she got to the hospital and did not see. Someone walked in and told me and I already knew. We had a meeting with the doctors about the baby and as we left I asked if Misty was in a room behind me and I was able to point exactly where she was. This does not just happen because of coincidence, One day molecules don’t decide to make you feel things. These feelings are real and you have them almost every day whether you choose to acknowledge them or not is your own choice.

My wife's funeral program was not of my design ether. Through the power of the Holy Ghost Misty was able to show me exactly what she wanted me to do. My wife is a very good planner, I am not. If you ever heard the term if you want things done then you have to do it yourself. That is what Misty did, I committed myself to doing the program but I did not have to make them. The night after she died I was showering thinking of the plans for the next day when this vision of the program came to my mind, instantly I knew just what she wanted and I said out loud to her as if she were right there and told her "that will be cute babe" the next morning I felt as if she we dragging me out of bed to get started because I really had no Idea how little time I would have to work it. She really did design the best program I had ever seen. It literally is a work of art in my eyes. She let me pick the pictures and the words but she knew where everything should be. This made it easier on me to do the rest of it. I told Jer her brother that she always got the towel for me when I would shower I am going to miss that. Bless her heart she has reminded me each time to grab one.

I know that these things are small and simple. But it is by small and simple things that faith is built.

You, the one who is reading this, the person I felt prompted to talk to you about this, I know with all my heart that this did happen to me. It is real I cannot deny this for fear I would be struck down by the lord himself. I say this because I love you. Start your path to faith, I know it hurts now but there is comfort is knowing. Pray now ask him if he is real; ask him if what I say is true. He will answer you. He does not speak how we do but he speaks with love. Not everyone hears a voice or has a extreme story they just feel the love that he has for them and you will find comfort in these words because he loves you.

All the good we fight for here is worth it in the end.

A few more

Just a few pictures

Remembering Misty

How can you forget such a great person? The answer is you can't. Times may be difficult or sad but, that’s when we always remember the good times we shared with those we lost. Misty was a master of making memories. To me, I have never met anyone better at it then Misty. Sometimes just touching the side of her face and she would return a smile that would just pierce deep into my soul. Misty is my soul mate, Webster’s dictionary defines soul mate as: "a person who is perfectly suited to another in temperament" I would define it as: Pure Love.

Misty has taught me that our love extends beyond death. Our Heavenly Father taught me that I can remain with Misty and Lucas as a family forever. "It just wouldn't be heaven without them." My wife and I have been through a ton of heart ache together. Every time we needed each other, we were there. I was able to stand when I had no strength. At times when I feel I have lost everything, I feel her there to remind me that all that was lost will be restored through our kind and loving Savior Jesus Christ. I hope that the day that I meet him, the first words out of my mouth are not "I am sorry" but "Thank you."

I know that I have been giving much, and I to must give. My wife will always be an inspiration to me she had made a difference in my life as well as yours. Let the love of Christ fill our hearts with joy for Misty and our son Lucas in remembering them. "Sunday will come"

My wonderful wife and son

Oh how I loved and always will. She is my best friend and enternal companion. words can not express the love I have for her I think the whole world needs to know it. Our love runs deep, even beyond this time, my experience with these last few days has been amazing our love is stronger becuase of it. Misty is amazing and reading some of the things that people have said about her just testify's that. I will do my best to fill the void that some may have when you visit this page. but not even I could take the place of Misty she is just too special.

I love to tell others about how great my wife is. it is by far my favorite thing to do on this earth. I will try to keep this updated. as much as I can. just know as I pray for Misty and my son that my prayers are with you too.